My deepest fear is..
Are you someone that does things on time or leaves them to the last minute?
When you got homework as a child did you do it on the way home or on the way to class the following week?
Will you do an all-nighter before a deadline or are you tucked up in bed feeling satisfied and accomplished?
I get it done. I am a doer. It was done last week.
I frequently say, “There are no flies on me.”
I’m sure if we read some psychology reports we would discover the reason behind those of us that get things done now and those of us that leave it to the last minute. I’m sure we are both as equally messed up.
I have spent the last few weeks glued to my lap top (my new lap top by the way for my new business!) Any blog, any ideas get written up and time spent on them. I’m getting things in order, I’m researching, I am on it.
So why oh why then am I leaving one particular aspect to the last minute? Why am I putting it off and doing everything else first.
We all procrastinate right? I hate hoovering but when I do get the hoover out I’m always interested in what I am procrastinating or dreading doing more than the hoovering.
This is a bit different and I guess there’s an emotional edge to this I need to uncover. But before I tell you about me, what about you?
What is it you are not doing?
Are people telling you, you are good at something in particular but you keep putting it off or making excuses?
What is it you really want to do but aren’t? Maybe a new hobby, learning to run, starting a business.
It’s probably time to think about why you are putting it off and what the route cause is.
Have you read my first Blog – Do It Afraid. Great, read it again.
It’s time to sort ourselves out.
Stop limiting ourselves and get on doing the very thing we could be absolutely brilliant at if only we’d give ourselves half a chance.
When I was in my twenty somethings I spent 3 years in the USA training to be a Mime Artist under the two most gifted artists I have ever met. Their performances radiated through my being like nothing I’ve ever seen or probably will ever see again.
It was powerful.
When I started this particular blog I didn’t know what the answer was, I genuinely hoped that as I wrote to you honestly I would uncover something.
And there it is.
They were powerful.
Can I be that powerful?
I am reminded of this amazing quote that you might have heard if you’ve watched the film Coach Carter.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson.
I’ll tell you now what I’m meant to be doing. I’m meant to be choreographing a mime that I can perform to a group of ladies in a workshop I am running. I can run workshops standing on my head, I do it as part of my day job. But for some reason this FEAR has infiltrated into the workshop and as it stands I have a few exercises and nothing else. At the moment the workshop would be ok.
It needs to be brilliant.
I need to be brilliant
And you need to be brilliant.
It is in us we are holding it hostage because the potential we have in us overwhelms us.
Some of you are pftting me right now because you think you have no power.
Of course you do. Why on earth would you have no power? Prove your lack of power!
There is a lightbulb inside you waiting to be turned on.
Your job is to find the switch and turn it on.
How are you going to do that?
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Lots of love to you as you figure it out.
Nicola x x
PS. The next day I sat down and wrote the workshop and mime in about an hour. I even practiced the mime. Sometimes we just need to acknowledge our stuff, give it a courtesy nod and then shift it out of the way. If I did it so can you!